So a theory has been developed that has been slightly disheartening to me. It seems that I ruin parties and get-togethers. Not in the sense that I show up and everyone else leaves, or that my presence leads to a bad time. More in the line of no one can remember an awesome party (one of those talk about forever or nights not to be missed) where I was present. I always miss them. I'm out of town or busy doing something else. I just assumed that was my bad luck, but it could possibly be true that I'm the one bringing down the fun. Something about me that turns what could potentially be an amazing night into something mundane.
This isn't to say I'm not fun, or don't know how to have a good time. Yet for some reason, I miss all the real fun. It makes me question most aspects of my personality and actions. There is some portion of it that doesn't mix well in large groups of people to the detriment of everyone involved. I want to have fun, and be fun. Leaves me with the feeling of being left out in the cold.
It also makes me want to leave, as to allow everyone else to have a good time. I may just be acting dramatic.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Japan 3
Sure everyone is finding this mini-series I've got going just riveting.
Today started off just as yesterday, early, with me awaking the same time as wifey. But unlike yesterday, so after she left for work nick awoke to a phone call followed by him prompting me to get dressed for an outing to the bank and the base. After a hot stint on the base reading my book and drinking a coke we made our way to the post office to deliver I-ching's package. Which was surprisingly simple, and cheap, to do. Then we ate curry after some walking around a shopping mall. We returned to the house to laze around and etc. After nick left and a nap/shower I headed out for the night. He had mentioned a place called 'jelly' that had a good ratio of women to men so I set out to find that at the fussa station. After aimless walking and a stop and an interestingly large video store(adult of course) i stumbled upon the place, but it was closed, or at least the elevator would not take me to it. More walking later I ended up at a small bar filled with a group of friends. Although some attractive women were in the group nothing came my way. And after no help from the bartender who spoke little english I went about my way. Now I had previously (the night before) stumbled upon a few lounges, and subsequently discovered they are not the same as lounges back home. Earlier today nick had explained to me they were places where girls pretended to be your lady for a while; very strange. So in my walking i stumbled upon another, and slightly inebriated and curious me decided to go in. Proceed to a very awkward hour of talking with the only two girls that spoke english (poorly), an ugly chinese girl and an older filipino woman. The attractive Japanese girl that was interested in my hair spoke no english and the good looking madam was busy of course. After some time I decided to leave and the gave me a present to give to a girl, and the 'mama-san' actually chased me down outside to say thank you. I presume this is because 1. I was more well behaved than I'm sure most customers are 2. I left before the time I payed for was up (paid for time but a learning experience none the less) and 3. well I'm not sure if there are more reasons. I decided to then cut my loses and headed home.
I feel it necessary to append yesterday for a few reasons. First being that even though I retired for the evening around 11, I was awakened around 1 by my cousin to go for a walk to 7/11 for a bit, we talked about my night and etc. Secondly being that this morning, very early, at 7 even though I assumed it was later(damned alcohol waking me up early), I had a revelation as to why hanging out and spending time with my family is so fulfilling. They understand me. I mean obviously they have an unfair advantage in comparison to others, but even still, my family just gets the complexity of being me. Not to say that I am more complex than others, but that they get that just because I'm forgetful doesn't mean I'm stupid, or because I like big words and to travel means I'm stuck up. We often act certain ways around certain people, but I truly feel like I can be myself and let my moods slide as they please around my family. Foolish one moment and thoughtful the next, from belligerent to pensive in seconds without a care as to why. Also, due to my laziness, minor details have been left out of the above story, so readers should inquire within if they are interested.
Today started off just as yesterday, early, with me awaking the same time as wifey. But unlike yesterday, so after she left for work nick awoke to a phone call followed by him prompting me to get dressed for an outing to the bank and the base. After a hot stint on the base reading my book and drinking a coke we made our way to the post office to deliver I-ching's package. Which was surprisingly simple, and cheap, to do. Then we ate curry after some walking around a shopping mall. We returned to the house to laze around and etc. After nick left and a nap/shower I headed out for the night. He had mentioned a place called 'jelly' that had a good ratio of women to men so I set out to find that at the fussa station. After aimless walking and a stop and an interestingly large video store(adult of course) i stumbled upon the place, but it was closed, or at least the elevator would not take me to it. More walking later I ended up at a small bar filled with a group of friends. Although some attractive women were in the group nothing came my way. And after no help from the bartender who spoke little english I went about my way. Now I had previously (the night before) stumbled upon a few lounges, and subsequently discovered they are not the same as lounges back home. Earlier today nick had explained to me they were places where girls pretended to be your lady for a while; very strange. So in my walking i stumbled upon another, and slightly inebriated and curious me decided to go in. Proceed to a very awkward hour of talking with the only two girls that spoke english (poorly), an ugly chinese girl and an older filipino woman. The attractive Japanese girl that was interested in my hair spoke no english and the good looking madam was busy of course. After some time I decided to leave and the gave me a present to give to a girl, and the 'mama-san' actually chased me down outside to say thank you. I presume this is because 1. I was more well behaved than I'm sure most customers are 2. I left before the time I payed for was up (paid for time but a learning experience none the less) and 3. well I'm not sure if there are more reasons. I decided to then cut my loses and headed home.
I feel it necessary to append yesterday for a few reasons. First being that even though I retired for the evening around 11, I was awakened around 1 by my cousin to go for a walk to 7/11 for a bit, we talked about my night and etc. Secondly being that this morning, very early, at 7 even though I assumed it was later(damned alcohol waking me up early), I had a revelation as to why hanging out and spending time with my family is so fulfilling. They understand me. I mean obviously they have an unfair advantage in comparison to others, but even still, my family just gets the complexity of being me. Not to say that I am more complex than others, but that they get that just because I'm forgetful doesn't mean I'm stupid, or because I like big words and to travel means I'm stuck up. We often act certain ways around certain people, but I truly feel like I can be myself and let my moods slide as they please around my family. Foolish one moment and thoughtful the next, from belligerent to pensive in seconds without a care as to why. Also, due to my laziness, minor details have been left out of the above story, so readers should inquire within if they are interested.
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